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I challenge you!!

I drank too much pop. Way too much like I'm talking two liters a day too much. If you cut me I would probably bleed diet pepsi. That's right not only did I drink ungodly amounts every single day, I drank diet pop. I want to talk about why I drank diet pop though. I… Continue reading I challenge you!!

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Truth is, I am not big boned.

I've always been overweight ever since I was a kid. Well almost always, but that isn't the point of this post. People used words like "big boned", and "baby fat." Until I got older then those words turned to "you're really going to eat that", and just "fat." Somewhere theres a transition though I can't… Continue reading Truth is, I am not big boned.

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Just one small step.

I haven't restarted my exercise program for I fear that I may be headed straight into another attack. I've woken up the last few mornings with an achey face, and jaw. This usual means I am going to experience pure hell very soon. I think the anxiety of waiting for it to strike again may… Continue reading Just one small step.

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Healthy? Not so much.

Today I came face to face with a harsh reality. They jam pack our food with so much crap it is almost shocking. I mean don't get me wrong I know they need additives, and such I don't live under a rock. We have all seen it the people, the ads, and yes even the… Continue reading Healthy? Not so much.

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But they’re wrong.

It is a hard thing to admit when you've let your circumstances get the best of you. Both to yourself, and out loud. It is hard to admit when once again you have failed, and slipped back into that life. The one where you make unhealthy choices, and feel like crap. All because well you… Continue reading But they’re wrong.

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This Time I Choose Me

Set backs are inevitable, for me they happen more then most. Its so discouraging to get in a  rhythm one you can be proud of at that. All to have it torn down once the monster returns.  The illness I suffer with is currently unknown, but the attacks don't go unnoticed.  My face swells to… Continue reading This Time I Choose Me

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Super food, or super power?

I don't know about you guys, but I have hit a caffeine overload. My moto was always "I run on caffeine, and will power" however recently it just hasn't been giving me the boost I need. That caffeine crash is hard to overcome, and those mid afternoon blues can leave you wishing you could crawl… Continue reading Super food, or super power?

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Have You Heard Of The Suicide Disease?

Today I want to write about somthing  a little different. I've spent so much time ignoring it refusing to believe this is part of me now. I've spent hours convincing myself that my disease doesn't define me, however it sort of does. I can run away as fast as I can, or shout to the… Continue reading Have You Heard Of The Suicide Disease?

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I Owe Every Nail Tech In The World An Apology.

You ever get your nails done, and think that it doesn't look so hard. As you watch your nail lady paint, polish grind, and repeat. You think if only you had the tools you could totally do that yourself. I mean after all it is just like painting your nails just a little more shaping,… Continue reading I Owe Every Nail Tech In The World An Apology.

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&& The Ship Is Sinking.

Life is full of ups, and downs, highs, and lows. One day you have it all figured out. The next the ship is sinking while everyone around you has still got their orangey glow. Actual representation of my life right now. Drawn by Me Just Ask Ma